February 2012
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Society is wrong. Dead wrong. We’re taught that...
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Honda: mid-hiatus update
I fell off the confidence wagon today. -___-;
I had a date-ish-thing with R, the derby dude. And I was sitting there, waiting on him, and I felt hideous and terrible and UGH. And then, through the entire thing, almost all the way til the end, I was SO AWKWARD, fuck my life. Like. I don’t shut. I am LOUD and OBNOXIOUS and weird as hell, and I was just, “………..”...
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Please consider my quest on hiatus until Spring Break is over. I’m preparing for a memorial fundraiser for a family friend, and I’m in a house in the middle of nowhere, interacting only minimally with human beings to whom I’m not related. I shall resume my regular posts (and day count) when the break is over. If I do any major quest-related things, I’ll be sure to post...
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Honda: days twenty four and twenty five
Wednesday and Thursday I…
…had another wildly successful Double Hipster Wednesday. We had something like a dozen people over the course of the evening, I baked orange cranberry pound (cup)cakes from scratch, and we drank vodka ginger cranberries. No one drank enough to get sick, and the main downside of the evening was that E was so absorbed in the weird version of partying we engage...
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Kensington: Day Whatever and Five
Today I…
… Got asked out. Yeah, totally happened.
… Didn’t freak out or do anything too stupid when I was asked out.
… Wore this black top that made my tits look like gifts from the universe.
… Wore makeup.
… Went back to my old store and talked to the people I used to work with (I’ve been avoiding the hell out of them.)
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Honda: day twenty three
Today I…
…sat immediately by E in Drawing class and conversed with him throughout the class period.
…talked a lot to a boy from the internet— R, the roller derby one— and made plans to hang out this coming week.
…told V about said plans, so as to prevent awkwardness.
…worked a lot on my evil plan.
…invited a couple new people to DHW tomorrow...
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Kensington: Day Whatever and Four (2/21)
… Today I
… Got into a cage match of a debate. Most of the hallway heard us arguing, and I even pulled people to my side of the issue. Not only did I participate in a debate, I didn’t back down from my point, I’m didn’t stutter or lose track of my point, I didn’t say sorry for having a differing opinion. I stated my points and dealt with each new argument as...
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Honda: day twenty two
Today I…
…was walking down the hall to my room, when a guy said, “Hi.” And I was like, “Hi?” And he was like, “You look really nice today.” And I was like, totally flattered, “Thank you!”
…told R my evil plan and got started on it. It’s… hard, really.
…bleached some cow bones in my sink.
…made...
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Honda: day twenty one
Today (fml, yesterday) I…
…got a sassy new haircut.
…actually forced myself to go to walmart and print photos.
…was totally cool about the idea of my sister moving to Colorado, without any needy bullshit at all. Go me.
…got compliments on my jewelry and took them well.
…circled for parking for like thirty minutes without having a panic attack.
Yeah,...
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Kensington: Day Whatever and Three
Today I …
… wore makeup for the first time in weeks. Since I wear my sunglasses inside now, I usually don’t bother doing much more than lip gloss and damage control on whatever zits I have. But I figured what the hell and put on purple and green eye shadow, and some pop-your-cherry-red lipstick.
… Accepted compliments and “happy birthdays” with simply a thank...
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Honda: day twenty
Today (yesterday) I…
…hung out with R for a girly baking day. We made ginger pound (cup)cakes filled with Bavarian cream, key lime tassies (mini pies, basically), and sugar cookies. They were all super tasty except for the cookies, but two out of three isn’t bad when your two are so delicious that it HURTS. Oh god. Nom nom nom.
That’s pretty much it. It was a day of...
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Kensington: Day Whatever (2/17 or maybe 2/18)
Today I…
… Texted my neighbors and asked if it was cool if I came over. This is big for me. Huge, even. I’m just so sure that whenever I ask anyone to hang out, or do anything, that it is an imposition and that they only say yes to be nice. Completely sure. Every time. But I ask and text anyway, because I figure I’m not always right.
… Went to a flea market. It as...
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Honda: day nineteen
Today I…
…literally did nothing but art all day. Finished one pointillism piece, started another.
…keep thinking that this is going to get better, but there’s this horrible ache in my chest and my stomach any time I stop moving, stop distracting myself, and it’s been over a year and it’s only gotten worse. I’m not even sad about it— I feel like...
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Honda: day eighteen
Dude. Kensington. Get your head in the game. Now is the time. SEIZE THE MOTHERFUCKING DAY AND POST ABOUT IT. This was your idea. :P
Today I…
…got a ridiculous number of compliments on my looks— people in the bathroom, in the elevator; even the Chinese delivery guy told me I was “very beautiful.” I’m pretty sure I managed to take them all pretty gracefully.
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Honda: day seventeen
Today I…
…went to my second class even though I REALLY didn’t want to, and talked to my professor about how to get a job in a cafe.
…went to the admissions office to ask about transient studentship, and they were HILARIOUSLY unhelpful. Fuck you, GSU. -___-;
…have started forcing myself to be alone with myself partially naked. I’ve started sleeping in a sports...
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Honda: day sixteen
Today I…
…went to class even though I realllllly didn’t want to. Aced the fuck out of the pop quiz, too.
…really, seriously considered dropping my Drawing class that I fucking hate so much, but when I told the people I sit with (M, L, and E), they all protested really emphatically, and M even said that I was the thing that kept him pushing himself in the class. I was...
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Honda: day fifteen
Today (yesterday, damn it) I…
…actually forced myself to buckle down on my Studio project, and figured out a topic that doesn’t make me hate myself.
…went to my Restaurant Management class, and, when I got there, showed my group the sketches I had done for potential uniforms for our restaurant-making project. The teacher kept coming by and being like, “Wow, I...
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Kensington: Day Whatever.
So, my head has been so bad of late that I’ve been unable to look at the computer screen for more than a few minutes, so yay! I’m back. (This was my idea and I’m already failing.)
I haven’t had a lot a big things, because I don’t have a lot of interaction with people. I mean, I go to class and talk to people and I go to work and talk to people. But all the people I...
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Honda: day fourteen
Today I…
…looked after my mom when we found out a family friend is on his deathbed today.
…did some responsible-type things around the house that are boring to type up.
…hung out and was sociable and polite with a patient/friend of my mom’s, a vaguely cute-ish guy who is currently working for us and who was helping my little brother with his science project....
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Honda: days twelve and thirteen
Over the last two days, I…
…spent most of the time in my parents’ house, cleaning my room with V.
…shamelessly went into town in the middle of the night in my pajamas in search of grits.
…hung out with my ex’s mom, who I adore, and actually managed to talk to her about him in goofy ways without it being at all awkward.
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Honda: day eleven
Today (yesterday, goddamn it) I…
…moved my seat in Drawing and sat near E and L, because E was being all, “Why don’t you sit near ussssssss?”
…got E’s FB and number and L’s number, and I think they’re coming to DHN next week. ^__^
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Honda: day ten
Today (yesterday…) I…
…hung out with R and her boyfriend without being insecure about being the single one at ALL. Also, her boyfriend is totally nice and I approve of him without wanting to bang him at ALL, so that’s like the best combo ever.
…ran into my old 3D teacher and yet again, tried to kidnap him and abduct him to the zoo. He didn’t seem to mind, but...
SO
I totally engaged in KICKASS stuff for the Confidence Quest today, but I’ve had rather a lot of wine, and typing is HARD, so I’ll post about them tomorrow.
BLUE CRABS. BLUE BUNNY. THAT IS ALL.
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Honda: day nine
Today I…
…took a test in American Govt and actually feel pretty confident about it. Normally I try not to think about a test after I take it, but I’m not letting myself avoid it mentally this time.
…told my Drawing teacher that I dreaded his class every day, but also politely added that that fact was in no way a reflection on his niceness or ability to teach.
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Kensington: Day Nine (I think? Maybe I'm off a...
My goal for the semester: (to the girl in front of us) oh hey, you hair looks nice today.
My goal for the semester: (to the guy behind us) dude, nice hoodie.
Me: I didn't get a compliment. Compliment me.
My goal for the semester: (looks down, embarrassed) ...
My goal for the semester: I like your sunglasses...
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Honda: day eight
Kensington, dude, you’ve gotta stop skipping days, that’s totally cheating. DAILY BLOG MOFO. :P
Today I…
…checked out a book from 1658 from the school library. It has SEVEN PAGES of freakishly legit unicorn lore. This has nothing to do with my confidence, it’s just fucking awesome.
…was vocal in my group during my restaurant management class, which was...
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Kensington: Day Seven and Eight
Today (2/5) I…
… Went over to a friends house for a super bowl thing. Which is big for me. I don’t like being in other people houses, it feels like too much of a power unbalance and I always feel awkward. But I went anyway and it wasn’t as bad as I thought.
… Wore black skinny jeans with my read peep-toe heels (when I say heels, I mean they’re 1 1/2...
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Honda: day seven
Today I…
…got up relatively on time and called the coffee shop I was going to try to interview the owner of. I was nervous to call, because, “Hey, uh, can I interview you or your general manager for a stupid paper?” is kind of weird to ask on the phone. The guy was really rude to me, and said no— I didn’t mind that he said no, it was just the way he said it.
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Honda: day six
Today I…
…went into town and asked if I could interview the owner of a restaurant for a paper. The girl at the counter said to come back tomorrow, so, despite my self-consciousness about it, I’m going back in the morning. Assuming I don’t vastly oversleep and fuck my life in the face. The paper is due Monday. Ugh ugh ugh.
…did something really inadvisable, but that...
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Kensington: Day Five and Six
Today (2/3) I…
… Told the uppity bitch in the theater what would happen if she shushed me again. (Seriously, who the fuck does that?)
… Talked to people I wouldn’t normally talk to, about things that normally I have no patience for, and generally kept my head above water doing. I’m pretty much always nervous when I talk to people, especially with those I...
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Honda: day five
Today I…
…registered to vote! Woo.
…spent three hours baking cupcakes for a family friend with cancer.
…managed not to strangle my mother or burst into tears when she was a giant bitch during dinner preparations.
…made a totally delicious taco dinner and unselfconsciously took compliments on it.
…didn’t really spend much time out of the house....
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Kensington: Day Four
Today I …
… Made myself get up and go ask the person with their headphones up so loud that the entire library could hear the dulcet tones of Paramore, if he would kindly turn it down a bit. This was sort a big deal for me, because usually I would just get furious about the fact that idiots are all around me, and not do anything about it, and then get so angry my head hurt. But I went...
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Honda: day four
Today I…
…wore a bird’s nest with a fake bird in it on my head as a hairpiece.
…said to hell with it, skipped my horrible Drawing class and drove the fuck home to Dtown. I even went and checked with the professor to make sure we weren’t getting any homework, and told him I wouldn’t be there. It’s really hard for me to be decisive enough to skip a studio...
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Kensington: Day Three
Today I…
… Wore large golden butterfly earnings, my mauve paisley shrug, my tall brown boots and my huge (but necessary) hipster looking sunglasses. Oh, and skinny jeans, don’t forget the skinny jeans. And red lipstick. I also decided not to give a damn if I actually looked like a hipster. And if there were odd glances because I wore my sunglasses inside (like I normally do) I...
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Honda: day three
Today I…
…wore a perfectly-coordinated outfit consisting of a spring floral patterned dress in neon pinks, oranges, yellows, and greens, over a white button down, paired with a pink sparkly headband topped with a green triceratops, in conjunction with deep magenta lipstick and a good amount of gold glitter. It was freaking awesome.
…got a ton of compliments on said...
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