Kensington: Day Whatever and Three

Today I … 

… wore makeup for the first time in weeks. Since I wear my sunglasses inside now, I usually don’t bother doing much more than lip gloss and damage control on whatever zits I have. But I figured what the hell and put on purple and green eye shadow, and some pop-your-cherry-red lipstick.

… Accepted compliments and “happy birthdays” with simply a thank you and a smile, instead of awkwardly stuttering or trying to figure out something else to say. 

… Had an emotionally in-depth conversation with my mother about how she is trying not to smother me, but still wants to be there for me, and the fact that I make that hard sometimes. I tried (did pretty well actually) to accurately express how I felt and what I was sorry for, as well as how I think we can work better together. My sensory stuff means that my system gets overworked easily and I can have pretty drastic highs and lows, and since I’m introverted I also need alone time to re-charge. So, I can want to be around mom, but I’ll be too emotionally sensitive or high strung, and it gives off mixed signals. So, even though it was awkward and I felt exposed, I tried to express that I was grateful and how I would attempt to behave in the future.