Kensington: Day Whatever and Four (2/21)

… Today I 

… Got into a cage match of a debate. Most of the hallway heard us arguing, and I even pulled people to my side of the issue. Not only did I participate in a debate, I didn’t back down from my point, I’m didn’t stutter or lose track of my point, I didn’t say sorry for having a differing opinion. I stated my points and dealt with each new argument as they arose without losing my head. It wasn’t even that I participated in a spirited debate (that happens all the time) but that I participated in a debate and I went for the fucking throat. The guy started out talking down to me, being rude and smug as if I didn’t know what I wast talking about. But I didn’t take any of his shit and I gave it as good as I got. I haven’t done something like that since high school. I mean, I used to get  ruthless.  And I think I got a little of that back today.

… Presented complicated and sensitive information in from of my Advocates of Peace class without stuttering or losing track of what I was saying. I answered questions and gave examples and I did it confidently. 

… Took a self-confidence quiz in my psychology and apparently I have slightly above average confidence. I find this both funny and almost unbearably sad.